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Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there…to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never realize your potential, strength, will power or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. Illness, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test limits of your soul.

Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you experience can create whom you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but also because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things. Make every day count. Appreciate everything that you possibly can, for you may never experience it again.

Talk to people whom you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high. Hold you head up because you have every right to.

Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don’t believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you. Create you own life and then go out and live it.

"If you take your eyes off your goals, all you see is obstacles."

When you worry and hurry through your day, it is like
an unopened gift…Thrown away…Life is not a race.
Take it slower. Hear the music before the song is

i dont know where i’m goin.. but i sure know where i’ve been. hangin’ in the promises in the song of yesterday.. but i ‘ve made up my mind. i ain’t wasting no more time.

i’m just another heart who need a rescue. waiting on a love.. sweet charity. but i’m gonna hold on for the rest of my day. cause i know how it feels.. 2 walk along the lonely street of dreams..

here i go again on my own.. goin’ down the only road i’ve ever known.. like drifter i was born 2 walk alone.. i’ve made up my mind.. ain’t wasting no more time..

yesterday i got a phone call from my old friend from college.. valdin.. hahahaha. sure brings a lot of memory. back to 1991 when we’re young ( ups ).. stupid, reckless, sloppy ( still do ).. we talk till our batteries run out hehehe. we bring all the jokes that we used 2 laugh and we still laugh bout it out loud!

last time we had this laugh is 10 yrs ago ( fiuh ).. come 2think of it lots of things happen in d last 15 years ( 1991 ). We’ve grown up.. time seems pass us by so fast. so many experiences, so many walls 2 climb, so many changes, but i’m still glad that we still have "the soul" that we had 15 years ago. The soul that’s so pure and full of laugh.

We talked from "kuku bima.. mantap" till "walabah hulibet".. also all the srimulat and jhojhon things back in ’80s.. ampa polo.. biar mampus.. jejak congor.. ta tempiling.. menyoreni.. tessy.. ho’oh.. gila kamu ndro.. and of  course SATU!hahahhaahaha..

wonder what happen in d next 15 years.. are still crazy like we used 2? are we always talk bout d past?

wonder what happen in d next 15 years.. am i still searching my way of life? or am i already living my life?

wonder what happen in d next 15 years.. what is Gods plan for me? married? career?

wonder what happen in d next 15 yrs.. what if.. what if..

1000 posibilities, 1000 result,

15.. there’s never a wish better than this.. when u only got 100 years 2 live..

it started when i was 7 yrs old. i always remember what i dreamt, and it told me what’s going on tommorow. But as the time i grew up, the feeling’s gone. i cant remember my dream.. until 5 days ago.

i had some dreams every night and it tells me what’s going on tommorrow. very clear, from relationship, work, thing’s.. and today i know one off them come true. it’s like a symbol. The dreams was like.. " T is not very sure, nokia 9500, G puts her back on me, last nite tiger 2000, is this what dedi told me about? do i get my power back? can i control it? dunno…

hari minggu kemarin g ke bdg, ketemu temen g. Dedi. Kita ngobrol banyak, terutama g karena 2 bln terakhir ini feeling g kacau banget. well.. masih.. not sure  what 2 do. i guess my life isn’t simple ya.. too many monsters.. 2 many storms.. kaget bgt waktu dia bilang banyak "serangan" dan "parah".. gila… g cm mau idup simple gitu.. apa terpaksa g bikin ribet sekalian? biasanya si gitu. Pas g ultah makin bingung deh.. hehehe.. hanya berharap.. hey akhirnya  punya harapan juga.. cuma berharap pingin "pulang" capek.. kl emang blum waktunya "pulang" g berharap kuat aja deh. Yach jgn jgn terlalu serius jg kali ya.. sapa tau ada sesuatuuuuu……

i’m 33 for a moment..